Thursday, February 19, 2009

TrUe FeeLinGs!

Today has been the most interesting day that I have had. About 9:20 this am I received a phone call from my mom, telling me that my dad had passed away! WHAT!!!! The story is very complicated. I have not really talked or seen much of my dad in the last 5 years. Zach and my kids have met him a couple of times. The last time that I saw him was a year ago Christmas.

I am not even sure what to write or how to say much about him at this point. I am mostly doing this so that I can try to remember this day. He passed away last night about 5:30pm from a heart attack. His wife Katie, tells us that he was feeling sick all weekend. He had a panic attack and refused to go to the hospital. She kept trying to get him to go, but no luck. She said that he slept most of the weekend, and was pretty out of it. Yesterday, he went to use that bathroom, and she just heard a loud bang! He had fallen and hit his head. By the time she got to him, he had already passed. She called 911, they came, tried to work on him, but could not revive him. He was bleeding pretty bad from his head. They took him to McKay Dee Hospital to keep his body in the morgue.

This AM all of my siblings but one, headed to the hospital to say our goodbye's and see his body. I was shocked at what I saw. He looked SO old and frail. My heart sunk. I fell into my sister-in-laws arms as she just held my sister and me. So many things were running through my mind. Through all of this, I feel feelings of hurt and sorrow. So many unanswered questions. At this point all of us were wondering where to we go from here.

My parents have been divorced for a long time. I have a VERY Strong testimony of The Atonement Of Jesus Christ. I want to forgive my dad and move forward. Today we spent the day with his wife and her son Zak. I feel uplifted and had many questions answered. I am sure I will wonder about many things for a long time. One thing is for sure that I am SO SO Thankful for the Gospel in my life and my sweet little family!!!

11 Love Notes:

TravelMama said...

I am SO sorry to read about your dad passing away. It's a hard thing, but I'm glad you had questions answered and have such a strong testimony. That and family is what really helps us get through.

We'll keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

Rob & Julie Snow

denisejorgy said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. Death is such an emotional thing-even if we aren't extremely close to the one passing on. If you need any help please call me. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your darling family. Love you girl.

KT and Lance said...

I'm so sorry Becky. That's so hard. I love that you always add your testimony to whatever trial you are going through. You are an amazing woman, hang in there the peace will come, and the unanswered questions won't matter!

Wall-e-Family said...

Becky, I am truly sorry for the passing of your Dad. It does not matter what relationship you had with him, he is still your Dad. I pray you and your family will have peace and forgiveness in your hearts. We love you! Our prayers are with you.

naptime nostalgia said...

Becky,

I'm so sorry to hear of your Dad's passing. You and your cute family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hang in there!

Amy

Jamie N said...

Wow, Becky. I'm really sorry to hear about your dad. You're in my prayers.

Anna said...

Becky, I am sorry to hear about your loss.I know there is probably nothing I can really say that will make things all better,but know that you are in my prayers. Stay close to your husband and your Heavenly Father and you will get through this. Call if you need ANYTHING!

Dusty said...

Oh my gosh Beck I am shocked. That is so CRAZY. I can't imagine what you and everyone else must be feeling. I realize that your relationships with him were not ordinary but still it is a loss and I am very sorry. I love you and your beautiful testimony. I really miss all of you guys up there and hope we get to plan a trip up there soon. Love you.

The Bingham's said...

Becky, I too am so sorry to hear about your dad. Your testimony is so touching and I know it will bring you the comfort that you need. I am glad that you got some answers to your questions. You and your family are in our prayers!!

G and G (Victor/ Cindy) said...

Hey Becky ~ I missed you on Sunday, but got to talk to Zach for a few minutes. I was sorry to hear about your dad..... I know you said the relationship was not the greatest ~ Glad that you have your Faith to rely on. Thinking about you - ((hugs))

Denise said...

Becky, I was so sad to hear about your dad. I didn't know him very well but I know that it must be very difficult for all of you. You all have been in my thoughts over the past week & hope that you are holding up. Let me know if you need anything!

p.s. It was nice to run into you & Kim at the mall the other day!