TrUe FeeLinGs!

Today has been the most interesting day that I have had. About 9:20 this am I received a phone call from my mom, telling me that my dad had passed away! WHAT!!!! The story is very complicated. I have not really talked or seen much of my dad in the last 5 years. Zach and my kids have met him a couple of times. The last time that I saw him was a year ago Christmas.

I am not even sure what to write or how to say much about him at this point. I am mostly doing this so that I can try to remember this day. He passed away last night about 5:30pm from a heart attack. His wife Katie, tells us that he was feeling sick all weekend. He had a panic attack and refused to go to the hospital. She kept trying to get him to go, but no luck. She said that he slept most of the weekend, and was pretty out of it. Yesterday, he went to use that bathroom, and she just heard a loud bang! He had fallen and hit his head. By the time she got to him, he had already passed. She called 911, they came, tried to work on him, but could not revive him. He was bleeding pretty bad from his head. They took him to McKay Dee Hospital to keep his body in the morgue.

This AM all of my siblings but one, headed to the hospital to say our goodbye's and see his body. I was shocked at what I saw. He looked SO old and frail. My heart sunk. I fell into my sister-in-laws arms as she just held my sister and me. So many things were running through my mind. Through all of this, I feel feelings of hurt and sorrow. So many unanswered questions. At this point all of us were wondering where to we go from here.

My parents have been divorced for a long time. I have a VERY Strong testimony of The Atonement Of Jesus Christ. I want to forgive my dad and move forward. Today we spent the day with his wife and her son Zak. I feel uplifted and had many questions answered. I am sure I will wonder about many things for a long time. One thing is for sure that I am SO SO Thankful for the Gospel in my life and my sweet little family!!!